Your limited options

I'm active on the market for a little more than 10 years and while things went relatively well for me, I still don't like 95% of stocks, of investors, of people writing on forums about fucking penny stocks and crappy companies that don't grow or about companies that grow a lot but don't make any money. 

That investment world is full of hypocrites and crooks. It's a game of appearances. I see it every day. There's a shitload of superinvestors enjoying their visibility a lot for the power or the possibility to fuck gold diggers. You've got wannabe investors trying to get visibility or trying to get closer to other investors to be a real one. You've got hedge fund managers trying to convince us that they're job is useful to retired people while they just fucking snort coke with their money. A lot of nasty motherfuckers are in the investment field. 

I find it intellectually stimulating to read about stocks, but I'm not in love with that. I could very well stop any investing activities if I was really rich. Then, I'd only travel and contemplate the horizon, day after day. 

Money is probably the only aspect of my life where things go pretty well. The rest doesn't necessarily goes wrong, but I wouldn't use the word "good" to describe them. But I don't want to complain, because a lot of people have had a way more difficult time than me while they were in Auschwitz.

I've come to believe that, probably, the only way of living an exciting life would be to live like Alex Delarge in Clockwork Orange. The problem is that it's highly immoral and illegal to live like this. I don't care too much about morality, but for legality it's another thing:  I don't want to experience sodomy in jail. 

But otherwise, if you chose the moral path, what will you get?

You'll get a job that will bore you sooner or later. You'll get bosses you don't like and for whom you've got no respect. You'll get a wife or a husband to whom you'll have nothing to say and many diverging interests as time goes by until there's nothing left between you. You won't even touch your partner eventually. You'll lose your friends, some for reasons, some for no reasons, even if your relation was solid not so long ago. Your kids will get on your nerves every day after work, screaming and crying for no reasons. Your parents will get cancer, suffer and die and you'll feel alone. You'll get health problems of various nature, sometimes light, sometimes heavy. You'll try to understand if 40 years have made you advance or stall. You'll try to understand your place in this fucking world and you won't find an answer. 

You'll fall into depression or you'll realize you have to change the way to play the game. And I really just see the extreme way of Clockwork Orange as an option of living a non-boring life.

It's very important for you to stop being happy today and fully realize what I'm telling you.